to TF JADE
date Tue, Jul 6, 2010 at 8:27 PM
subject Chat with DJ Vox
8:27 PM DJ: coffin'c car... isn't that the picture we have been talking about?
me: no. Stoltz drives the blue charger
8:28 PM DJ: Ok.. where am I supposed to be looking.. I musta missed something
and there's nothing dangerous about me.
8:29 PM me: there's little not dangerous about you
that picture... did you look at it today?
8:30 PM DJ: I know I didn't click on anything that looked like that if that's what you mean.
I've been on several pages on the site so I don't know if it might have been on one I accessed today.
8:31 PM me: okay
DJ: Checking IPs?
Does my home one change?
this DSL is on an IP pool from verizon but I don't know if it's static or not.
8:32 PM me: it changes slightly
DJ: I figured it was not static.
that's what you learned when I told you I was at home ;)
8:33 PM me: I've gotten pretty decent at pinpointing through IPs... you didn't have to tell me you were at home
also...
8:34 PM DJ: But you asked at the time. I think to conferm.
me: I didn't get a chance to tell you what I learned from your IP when you first wrote me
DJ: confirm
I suspect I did it from the office.
But I'm not sure.
8:35 PM me: I had an IP for you, I believe, around the third email I got from you
I can go check
'cause now I'm curious
DJ: You are the curious type.
me: it's a curse
DJ: sometmies
crap
8:36 PM me: ?
8:37 PM DJ: typos
8:38 PM I hate ''em around you...
me: Why? I get a kick of out 'em
DJ: :P
me: devine was great -- although not a typo
8:39 PM ;)
DJ: I have a problem with DE vs. DI a lot.
me: okay... so on Feb. 27 -- one day after you originally wrote me -- I had your IP
DJ: I'm supposed to be composing more thoughts for you.
me: I have a problem with ant/ent and ance/ence words
8:40 PM DJ: how do you get it? Watched me hit the contact or profile link on your site?
me: I tricked you into giving it up
DJ: I[d have to go back and look... did you send me a link?
8:41 PM me: I also tricked you into giving up one where you went somewhere or something miles away
so I know where you went to
:P
8:42 PM nothing to say about that?
8:43 PM DJ: I'm just SO pissed
me: !
DJ: :P
kidding
I want to know the trick though.
me: nah, I'm not telling the trick
itz a secret
DJ: You'll tell me everything eventually.
8:44 PM me: not hardly
I tell you only what I want you to know
DJ: So you'll always have the upper hand on Mr. Dangerous huh?
me: I did slip up on one thing but I have a feeling you didn't catch it
not a lie...
too much truth
8:45 PM DJ: I'm to trusting... I don't parse for stuff as deeply as you do.
There's nothing wrong with YOU doing it.
I just don't do it as much.
me: even if there was something wrong with me doing it, I can't help it
DJ: But I understand why you do and how you enjoy it.
I know.
8:46 PM What did you think about the flash insight I had this morning?
I notice that you get quieter the closer I get to the mark... and you've not commented on it.
;)
8:47 PM me: oh I was going to tell you what that sheriff wrote...
he quoted my post...
8:48 PM and said:
OK, fess up! Which one of the fools are you running around with now?
DJ: (you are SO funny when you deflect me!)
Holy crap! he said that?
me: uh-huh
hahaha
I laughed out loud
DJ: you musta busted laughing at that.
me: I did
DJ: too funny.
8:49 PM Nice dodge by the way....
:P
you got really quiet when I kissed you too.
me: No dodge I drive a toyota
DJ: Very funny.
me: :)
DJ: She's askin' for it.
8:50 PM I don't know what "it" is yet.... but I'll figure it out and she's gonna get it.
me: still don't know what it is, huh? interesting
8:51 PM DJ: Well it depends.... something to get you with... would be a waste of time to spank you if you are really into a spanking :P
8:52 PM me: spankings don't work on me
DJ: Didn't think so.....just a gut feeling.
me: did I mention I'm, like, a pastor's daughter?
DJ: !
me: I grew up getting spankings
DJ: Those are the best kind.
8:53 PM Oh well spanking WOULD work.... you're not SUPPOSED to like punishmnet! ;)
me: MKs are way better than PKs
I revolt against punishment
DJ: ?
me: military kids are better than pastor's kids
8:54 PM DJ: I was an MK
me: heh
DJ: I have a question
me: I have an answer
DJ: Is my vulgarity TO vulger?
8:55 PM me: To vulgar or not to vulgar; that is the question
DJ: Sorta.... but not really....
me: too vulgar as far as...?
8:56 PM DJ: I was thinkiing that... my vulgar is NOT sweet.
me: yours is raw
DJ: yes.
me: it doesn't offend me if that's what you're asking
DJ: is it grating on the ears?
me: no, it's fine
8:57 PM it's expressive
which I like
DJ: I just wondered from a language and communication stand point.
like you said... sometimes it can get in the way.
Ah.. see.. that's constructive :)
8:58 PM me: if you were a heavy cusser it would get tiresome
DJ: And it's situational... I think you liked it when I whispered a few choice things in your ear....
me: but you don't seem to be
so no worries
DJ: I find language and communication interesting and you would have a very unique perspective.
8:59 PM me: I liked the way you expressed yourself with those whispers
DJ: Good... because that's basically how I am.
me: language and communication are as exciting to me as the technical details of your work
DJ: I thought as much.
me: <-- nerd
9:00 PM DJ: <<<< him too
me: :D
DJ: but you're a really CUTE nerd
me: aww...
DJ: nay.... sexy too.
me: I can be, I suppose
DJ: Very.
and it's natrual...not put on at all which makes it very very good.
9:01 PM All these transposed letters.... I think it's my bad keyboard positioning
I've managed to be better about the caps
me: excuses, excuses
DJ: There she goes again.
9:02 PM Bucking for something.
me: you needed to be better about caps?
what on earth would I be bucking for?
DJ: I type stuff all the time at work... I'd rather keep things proper
9:03 PM I had to tell my niece.... that her "How r u doing" emails were very bad for her considering she wants to be a writer.
me: there is a time and place for that though I think
you should see my texting
DJ: Plus I'm terrified you'll find out I'm a functional illiterate.
me: and I think I write well
9:04 PM DJ: Oh, when you have limited space it makes perfect sense.... but she was doing it in emails.
You write very well.
You have to know the rules before you break the rules.
me: Oh, that's a good one!
9:05 PM DJ: Someone said it was Mark Twain when he was savaged by the critics for the vernacular in Huck Finn. I've never been able to confirm taht.
shit.
me: Email doesn't have to be as formal as handwritten though
9:06 PM DJ: No but she took my point to heart and her emails got a lot better.
So the ol' chat box was a small test for me , huh?
9:07 PM me: in part it was
mostly it makes communicating more personal
DJ: :)
I'm thinking about those fingers on your keyboard...... ...... ......
.................................
.................
9:08 PM How often does the color change?
Impressions....................
me: the color change?
DJ: You curled up next to me in the coffee shop... your legs tucked under you... you looked very comfortable.
9:09 PM me: someone is crediting picasso with the rule-break thing
DJ: I'd seen that once.
me: I was as comfortable as could be
DJ: Well it was better than with Mr. Sweaty, right?
at least I'm TALKING to you stil.
9:10 PM me: he still contacts me... he sent me an email last night
DJ: I'm jealous
Tell him to stop
;)
9:11 PM me: huh-uh. I need him
DJ: Another source?
me: yup
DJ: It's funny...
I'd thought long and hard about whether or not I'd want anything about me to be a subject of a blog posting.....
and I'd concluded not.....
9:12 PM But you manged to do it in the most sweet way... :)
(now she's gonna slam me and say..............................
"WHo said it was about YOU!"
)
9:13 PM me: obviously it was about you
DJ: But I know how you think....it would occur to you to mess with me :)
9:14 PM me: I may keep you off the site because I know you don't want to be on the site... however I do know how to make posts about any given person without making it about any given person
Mr. Sweaty as you call him is an example of that
DJ: How do you follow up... you have devoted followers who will be expecting more ;)
me: "Boomslang" is another
9:16 PM DJ: It's not so bad, the way you did it. It's much like when I was telling you what I did without telling you.
me: if they are devoted followers they know I do as I please
DJ: Oh I do like that independent streak you have!
me: well... think about it... even with the label "distracted"... YOU know that's connected to you... no one else would
9:17 PM even when you get both entries under that label... it just looks like it has something to do with the Feds
DJ: Yes I do. I was tickled that I have my own tag.
yep.
me: esoteric I can do
9:18 PM DJ: :)
You are good.
VERY good.
9:19 PM me: :)
DJ: You keep getting from me and not giving up much... :P
'sokay though...... could work into my diabolical plans.....
9:20 PM me: I've given a lot -- way more than usual for me
by the way: Ernest Hemingway said that "to break the rules, you must first know the rules."
DJ: (Don't think I don't know that)
Even better than twain then.
9:21 PM So what did you think of the big dopey grin I had on my face when you first drove up?
It amazes me that you could be worried at all about what I'd think...
me: hemingway came after twain so maybe he stole it
DJ: Could be
9:22 PM me: I thought you looked great when I drove up
DJ: I don't thing "repulsed" would quite fit my reaction, would it.
9:23 PM "thing"??? WTF is wrong with me?
me: hahaha...
DJ: be different if the G and the K were next to one anotehr.
damn
FUCK
It's YOUR FAULT
you fluster me.
me: you did not look repulsed, no, but you are, I assume, trained to not give that sort of thing away
9:24 PM DJ: Oh fuck that trained crap.
I was just a person meeting someone he likes and wanted to meet.
me: do you not understand that "crap" is part of the reason I find you desirable?
DJ: I'm the low key type but I don't put that "face" on unless I'm working.
9:25 PM Yes I DO...
and I've gotten to understand it.
BUT... when it comes to my basic honesty...... different matter .
I wasn't hiding behind some LE mask.
I let you see me.
:)
9:26 PM Even you noted that I was very open about the job etc....
me: the physical activities are also part of the reason I like you yet you don't constantly put down, I don't know, you being a rock-climber or motorcyclist
DJ: And I suspect you could see in my eyes that I enjoyed you.
9:27 PM me: every time you noticed me looking in your eyes, you smiled
DJ: OhI don't even mind the LE stuff... just the idea that I could control my emotions in a personal area because of work doesn't sit well.
I did.
Because I got to see you also.
9:28 PM Eye locks can be very intimate.
me: you cannot separate the two! personal/work feh. FEH!
DJ: Just like hand sex
yes but... you don't have to hide behind it either.
9:29 PM me: hand sex is so cool
DJ: Yes'm
9:30 PM me: I think if you're hand-to-hand with the right person you can seriously feel their energy through their fingertips
speaking of being ungrammatical
that was awful
DJ: I call it "electric"
me: electric indeed
DJ: Dont worry about it.
You have that.
Not everyone does.
9:31 PM just like not everyone can kiss... which is so sad because it's so basic yet important.
9:32 PM me: yes! when you kissed me... I was like "perfection, he is!"
DJ: (wordless)
9:33 PM me: nice
DJ: A good kiss you feel more than just on the mouth...
it makes everything else around you go away.
9:34 PM So what was the importance of "Who kissed who first:?"
Because you HAD to know!
9:35 PM me: not telling the importance. I did realize it was you, and you admitted it
9:36 PM I dwelt on some of this today
in case you couldn't tell
9:37 PM DJ: Ummmm I thought we decided it was mutual... since you were about to crawl across the seat between us to stay up with me......
Forgotten that part already huh?
me: that was later
DJ: nope.
me: you forgot earlier
DJ: On the side walk??? biting your shoulder doesn't count.
9:38 PM me: besides you declaring we decided it was mutual does not make it so ;)
DJ: And you were telling me why it matters.............
9:39 PM me: why it matters to me is irrelevant to you
DJ: No it' not... there is NOTHING you could think that is irrelevant to me... ;)
9:40 PM So what were you dwelling on?
I thought you were supposed to be concentrating?
9:41 PM me: I was concentrating
on you
which is weird 'cause you weren't there
DJ: True
me: I am so so SO lucky I have a friend who understands
DJ: How so?
9:42 PM me: because if I do things that might not make sense -- unusual for me -- she knows it's 'cause of you
9:43 PM although she doesn't know who you are
I added that last part in case you got paranoid
DJ: I know better
:)
9:44 PM So.... you were about to share your impressions of yesterday......
me: I was?
9:45 PM DJ: Yup
'cause I know it just has to be all pent up inside you looking for a place to go.
me: that's probably true
doesn't mean I'm going to let it out
9:46 PM and...
the more you push...
well... I'll build a tougher fence around it
;)
9:47 PM since I'm aware you're dangerous, and all
DJ: allo?
9:48 PM test test
me: did we lose connection?
DJ: I lost the chat window and had to restart gmail to get it back
for a few sexonds
crap!
Now that's a REAL "keys together" typo
me: I will cut and paste then
DJ: ty
me: sexonds? I like it.
9:49 PM DJ: Yup
'cause I know it just has to be all pent up inside you looking for a place to go.
me: that's probably true
doesn't mean I'm going to let it out
and...
the more you push...
well... I'll build a tougher fence around it
;)
since I'm aware you're dangerous, and all
'cause I know it just has to be all pent up inside you looking for a place to go.
me: that's probably true
doesn't mean I'm going to let it out
and...
the more you push...
well... I'll build a tougher fence around it
;)
since I'm aware you're dangerous, and all
that is what you missed (in context)
DJ: ty
me: wlcm
9:50 PM DJ: But If I don't prod a little.... you just sit there and sponge ;)
so I have to find the sweet spot
and remain fun to play wiht.
Oh, the pressure!
me: hahaha...
9:51 PM DJ: so I get nuttin huh?
me: you wanted it that way, if I recall ;)
DJ: I did?
Oh wait... different subject...
9:52 PM And NO I didn't..... but I know it had to be that way.... were it up to me things would run different... but there's two things ....
A.... I am the only one who knows I'd not be being a shit head to you and
B..... you're a girl.. it has to be proven to you that I'm not being a shit head.
9:53 PM me: I don't think like most women. In fact, I have yet to find any woman who thinks even remotely like me.
9:54 PM DJ: I suspect that is true.
And I recognized that right off.
me: trying to handle me based on how you believe women are then is not going to work well
9:55 PM DJ: I know that.
BUT...
me: not on that stuff anyway
DJ: hmmmm
Matters not anymore... Monday is gone... (never to be forgotten)
me: I understand that you mean well
9:56 PM DJ: that is the only important thing.
me: perhaps it's meant well
DJ: it 'tis and was...
:)
me: Monday was good.
DJ: Monday was exceptional.
and that's without.
9:57 PM me: Even if it stopped there, I would be very happy
DJ: You know... I understand that... I always have said....
"you can know someone for a very short time and still gain by it"
9:58 PM But....
As for me.....
I don't want it to stop there..
Just in case you wondered.
(thus the FYI email)
9:59 PM me: I didn't wonder; you've made it clear
10:00 PM DJ: I think you like things being clear.
me: I have things to do every one of those days... at most I might be able to get away early... but my early would still be bordering on evening-time
DJ: that's ok for me.
10:01 PM me: I would rather have someone tell me the cold hard truth about something bad than string me along down a hazy road for something good
if that makes sense
DJ: Yes it does.
10:02 PM me: what part was "ok for me"?
DJ: you pick a day that's good for you and tell me where abouts you'd like me to be.
see above
me: it couldn't be a day though... it'd have to be an evening/night
DJ: that'sfine
me: <-- trying to clarify
DJ: Understood
me: oh okay.
DJ: :)
10:03 PM me: Saturday evening/night would be great because I am free Sunday
DJ: Perfect :)
me: are you sure?
DJ: Yes'm
me: where shall we meet this time?
10:04 PM I'm okay with a public place now ;)
DJ: You let me know what's best for or most comfortable for you.
I only suggest nearer to you because that way it maximizes the time I'd get to see you from the time you get out of work.
10:05 PM I'll be available all those days so it matters not if I have to drive/ride a ways.
10:06 PM me: when is your curfew?
DJ: curious... what kind of reaction would you think you'd get that you'd not want to be in "public"?
late
10:07 PM me: not a reaction thing... it's a personal comfort thing
DJ: ah
me: it's not external it's internal
10:08 PM DJ: I hope it was painless ;)
me: ;)
I would like you to pick the place
10:09 PM DJ: Problem wih that is, if it's closer to you, I have no idea what's available. Unless you'd be more comfortable going away from where you are. I that's the case I can come up with something given a distance you'd not mind driving.
10:10 PM I don't care where it is...... or what it is... matters not what you are doing ... or where you are doing it... it's who you are doing it with ;)
10:11 PM me: I have no more idea what's available around me than I do what's around you. I am a recluse. Really.
DJ: What time would you be available?
10:12 PM me: The only thing I'd worry about driving any distance would be getting lost -- something that makes me for real angry -- but if it's not too complicated I can prolly swing it
10:13 PM saturday... let's see... by 5-ish I would expect
DJ: Ok... I'll do a little research and pitch you some ideas for meeting places...
any type of food that's off your menu?
10:14 PM me: nope. good with anything. game for anything.
10:15 PM DJ: :)
10:16 PM A loaf of bread..... a jug of wine....and it's not monday..... ;)
me: do you have any Saturday rules I should know about?
10:17 PM DJ: None that I know of.
10:18 PM Seriously... should I not have had the Monday rule?
10:19 PM me: Seriously... it wouldn't have mattered. I could not have anyway
DJ: ?
10:20 PM Aside from the setting....(despite your teasing me that in public could happen ;) )
me: teasing is the ideal word for it
10:21 PM DJ: I know... but it's like comedy.... all good comedy has a grain of truth to it.
That's what makes it work.
10:23 PM me: you got quiet
10:24 PM DJ: Nope... :)
I was remembering....
You teasing me and my restraint
;)
10:25 PM me: restraint and disinterest are indistinguishable with you then
DJ: Wait..... do you think I could kiss you.... pull you up on my lap... and FEEL what I felt from you and be disinterested?
10:26 PM Hardly.
Do you want to know you are wanted?
10:27 PM Do you want to hear how I"ve been dreaming about having you sitting on my lap... kissing you like we were, only with nothing between us ......
me: I want to be wanted for who I am... you'll never know who I am
DJ: I'll tell you all I was thinking and feeling if you wish to hear it.
10:28 PM me: I do wish to hear it
I've already said so
DJ: I know more about who you are than .... wait... no...
I bet you do know...
I know more about who you are than a lot of paople I suspect.
And that makes me dangerous.
10:29 PM do I know all.... of course not.
But II'm pretty damn close about some things and I know it surprises you.
10:30 PM I do like you for who you are. All that you've shown me... both intentional and not.
I know you well enough to see how carefully guarded you are.
10:31 PM I know you well enough to know that it gives you the willies a little bit about what I come up with some times.
and that you don't want to be hurt.
10:33 PM me: no one wants to be hurt... and this conversation is in waters I'm afraid I'll drown in.
DJ: I know the areas that you will not like.
10:34 PM I don't even want to make you uncomfortable.
It's just important to me that you know that I'm not an unfeeling unKNOWing dolt.
10:35 PM I'll run away before I hurt you.
me: that in itself would hurt at this point
DJ: I know.
so we must not hurt you.
Deal?
10:36 PM me: deal. :)
good time to make me smile
;)
DJ: Open communication is the key.
Ok hold a sec.. one smile coming up....
10:37 PM <<<< sticks thumbs in ears and .... waggles fingers.....>>>>>>
PPPPPPFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFTHHHHHPP
No??
me: not a good look for you
hahaha
DJ: I know....
:P
10:38 PM me: now THAT'S a good look for you
DJ: Do you really want ot hear how I want you? I know it bugged you that it seemed one sided...
I told you I want to spoil you rotten...
10:39 PM And now I want to take you to that non-thinking place.... and keep you there for as long as possible.
and I'd do very much love to kiss you with you sitting in my lap like we were yesterday.... sans clothing.... and rules.
10:41 PM I put her to sleep
me: no...
am awake
DJ: bored?
me: visualizing
DJ: no worse... INDIFFERENT!!
THAT would be the worst.
visualizing huh?
10:42 PM Just think of some of the things I whispered in your ear.
me: visualizing, yes
10:43 PM DJ: hmmmmm
:)
me: I read this article once...
in playboy or aomething like it...
*something
ha!
anyway...
in this girl's bio...
she said that she could...
10:44 PM climax without touching herself...
and I was like...
that's not possible...
how is that possible?!
turns out...
it's possible
;)
10:45 PM DJ: what are you telling me. (And now is not the time to be cagey)
(II mean I like it when we play but this is important)
me: I'm am just saying that the mind has a lot of power
10:46 PM DJ: Oh that is very true.
And your's in particular... ours.... are very similar.
10:47 PM me: (that was graphic enough on its own without adding to it for, you know, court)
DJ: Your lack of comment on my insight from this morning speaks volumes.
10:48 PM me: I would think that a male would have to physically be touched in order to orgasm
DJ: and goes to the same thing
me: is that correct?
DJ: Yes... but you can get pretty damn close with someone who knows what she is doing.
me: interesting
10:49 PM DJ: And in particular.... (If you are interested) some men not only need the stimulation to get there...but if you stop,it will stop. Or at least the pleasurable aspects of it will stop.
10:50 PM Other's, once you get them there, it just goes and will not stop.
(Is this information?)
me: yes it's information
which are you?
DJ: Former
10:51 PM me: do you like it that way -- being in the former category?
DJ: I don't know any other way so it's tough to say.
I suspect that ...
10:52 PM even if you were the type that the orgasm would continue to go on after it's started, that continued stimulation would be better than not.
Plus there's the after effect.... some guys DO NOT like being stimulated after because they are hyper sensitive.
10:53 PM (since you are going to ask) I am ok with it if she has the right "touch"
(you BTW I suspect have it in spades)
10:54 PM (goes with that hand sex thing... and like when you touched my back and ran your fingers through my hair.... I inferred anyway)
What else do you want to know?
me: everything you want to tell me -- and plenty you don't want to tell me, too
10:55 PM I sit here in rapt attention
DJ: Ask me. It's better if you ask (like good sex... give and take.... share and share)
10:56 PM I don't understand though.....
10:57 PM you seem to be saying I was so closed you couldn't tell I enjoyed you and was aroused by you.
?
me: what are you asking?
10:58 PM DJ: I think you think I was either very closed or not effected by you.
10:59 PM me: Here is what I think: They may have their preferences, but men will **** mud
to apply that to you...
11:00 PM you may have been turned on...
but not necessarily because it was ME
get it?
DJ: Ah.. I see.
sigh...
(thinking)]
11:01 PM me: I mean...
understand I am okay with that
DJ: that is a tough one...... I THOUGHT it was you that I was kissing and feeling VERY spoiled by the attention from.
11:02 PM It's like....
"this"
the emails and the talking etc.
it amazes me that I can hold your attention at all.
11:03 PM and that you find me attractive and wanted me to kiss you (and yes.. I wanted you to kiss me too).... that's just over the top good.
because it's YOU
remember the thing I told you about the hot chick that was touching my arm and I DIDN"T like it...
it's because she had NO idea who I was... that creeped meout.
11:04 PM I keep telling you...
what you've let me KNOW of you I like very much.
and SHE was who I was kissing..
and getting very turned on by and thinking very unclean thoughts.
11:05 PM me: I know it probably seems like it but... I don't need reassurance, so much. I do believe you like the idea of me -- which is good enough
and you are like a drug to me
11:06 PM highly addictive one
I can't imagine not having it
yet it's dangerous
11:07 PM DJ: "the idea" of you..... so it's fake??? an illusion??? You've been pulling the wool over my eyes by very carefully crafting what you let me see?
I SEE you very carefully letting out what you want to...
and the few times you've let slip a little more than you intended.
11:08 PM I know you are protecting yourself.
so...................
here's what I propose...
I want to see you.
But........
NO sex.
because that creeps you out... because you think I'm fucking some phantom chicka.
11:09 PM I either do you or do nothing.
11:10 PM (great.. I come up with a cute turn of phrase but wish I didn't have to)
me: First: I don't know how to be fake. But I clearly can't fully control what someone's perception of me is.
DJ: You worry to much.
can't you accept that I like you"?
me: Second: why do you keep coming up with ways to avoid having sex with me?
DJ: is this a continuation of the "we cannot meet" thing"?
11:11 PM BECAUSE I DO NOT WANT TO HURT YOU
Silly me.. I care.
Im strange that way.
me: I DON'T THINK LIKE MOST WOMEN DO. The sexual part is not hurtful
11:12 PM DJ: I want it so bad It makes me CRAZY
Ok then... I take it back...
I want to fuck you till you see red white and purple staris.
me: I would not get all bent out of shape or devastated if a guy screwed me and I never heard from him again
11:13 PM I don't have such a big ego in that area, I would expect it
DJ: Ok it's my problem, because I would.
me: sheesh
DJ: I want you bad girl... but like I said...
me: my, gosh, but you are fun
hahaha
DJ: I want to GIVE
11:14 PM and receive... if it's freely givien.
me: you provoke all these emotions in me
DJ: the simple joy of knowing someone.
like?
11:15 PM me: like... joy and irritation and melancholy
DJ: In case you haven't figured it out yet .. I'm a bit of a romantic... I don't want to just be another dick either.
Melancholy?? Oh that's a good one..I was not supposed to tell yuou this but I was in a TOTAL funk today.
11:16 PM me: why were you not to tell me and why were you in a funk?
11:17 PM DJ: Because I didn't hear from you and because I DO NOT want to put the pressure on you that makes you feel like you HAVE to contact me at any particular time.
it's just like sex... it HAS to be becuase you WANT to.
just like you want it to be because it'sYOU and not some nameless fantasy.
11:18 PM me: are you saying I funked you?!
for realiously?!
DJ: (which it is YOU by the way that I want to make into a big puddle)
yes I was worthless all day.
me: :D
DJ: The irrational part of me was going "she's turffed you"
11:19 PM me: heh
DJ: The logical part of me was...
"she's trying to concdentrate on work"
THEN I saw your latest blog post and...
well...................
11:20 PM Sonnets have been written from feelings like that.
I'm a romantic ... so sue me.
11:21 PM me: so you expect me to believe that you like me but you don't believe that I think you're the awesomest?
11:22 PM DJ: Stupid huh?
I TOLD you I have my own self esteem issues.
me: illogical to say the least
DJ: And I want you in the worst way...
for the best reason.
11:23 PM me: what reason would that be?
DJ: I like you.
lots
11:24 PM me: :)
11:25 PM DJ: What's funny is...
You htink I'm all talk about being 'bad"..
and you've mad me have some of the most wicked fantasies....
so they are even worse than normal.
11:26 PM me: do share
DJ: Well that's the strange part...
I can't le them go to far in my head because I don't know what your limits are.....
11:27 PM Heck.. I won't push fantasy you because I don't knw what real you would or would not be into.
I'm just strange that way.
But there has been a little hair pulling involved.
11:29 PM me: if I had no limits... where do your fantasies go?
11:30 PM DJ: all kinds of places.... barring kids and animals.....
11:31 PM It's like I can fantasize about pleasing you.... but being pleased is tougher....
So I don't go there.
much
and some is just visual...
I thought .... I wondered if you
11:32 PM if you'd stretch out on a bed or couch like a vargas girl for me...
display yourself to me....
sometimes it's that simple.
does this interest you... seeing how I think?
11:33 PM (as she's off in another window ordering I Heart Jade Bumper Stickers)
(didja laugh?
11:34 PM me: Hahaha... shut up! My site is totally being neglected because of you thank-you-very-much. :P
DJ: Worth it?
me: how is being pleased tougher?
almost worth it
;)
DJ: bad girl.
11:35 PM I know what you do.
you half the real answer just to tweak me.
or quarter
It's one thing for me to fantasize about going down on you... good good God how I do...... (want to)....
11:36 PM But thinking about the reverse is a little tougher because I don't know that you like that. A strange quirk of my fantasy brain.
11:37 PM LIke now I can fantasize all day lond about you sitting astride me and us fucking our brains out because I have a pretty good Idea you'd like it.
11:38 PM me: Oh I like going down. My tongue isn't double pierced just because it looks pretty. ;)
DJ: You see my point then?
11:39 PM me: no. I can fantasize everything I want you to do and everything I want to do
DJ: like....??
(funny you mention your tongue art;... I felt one of them when we were kissing and it surprised me.)
11:40 PM me: I wondered if you'd noticed them
11:41 PM DJ: I saw them but didn't think about them when we were kissing till I felt one.
it was no big deal.
Just a surprise.
again you are not sharing ;)
11:43 PM me: you saw them? when?
11:44 PM DJ: While we were talking...you can catch glimpses of them.
me: ah
DJ: So what have I done to you?
In your fantasy...... you siad yesterday that we just got to the start of yours.
11:45 PM me: I don't want to taint reality by sharing my fantasies
11:46 PM but I would like to hear more about the kind of things you like
DJ: I like a woman who understands erotic
light touches...
nips with teeth...
11:47 PM eyes.....
breath....
taste...
someone who's not afraid of tasting them selves.
11:48 PM or me.
or sweat...... watching a bead of sweat run down the valley of her spine.....
11:49 PM feeling her clutch at you as you get her ever so closer to the edge...
Knowing that she's turned on because she feels YOU close to the edge....
hearing something raw come out of her mouth... a sound... a word... a demand....
11:50 PM Watching her hand clutch at the sheet.......white knuckled...
feeling her push back against me
11:51 PM seeing her satisfied smile as she's fallen across the bed... spent.... every last ounce of need drawn out of her.
11:52 PM still there?
me: absolutely
told you you cyber ;)
DJ: I don't cyber.
I'm just telling you what I think
what do YOU think about it?
11:53 PM me: think about...?
DJ: about what I just showed you.
me: it's subtle... but sexy
11:54 PM DJ: Well There is raw stuff too.
me: such as?
11:55 PM DJ: Wanting to see you with your shoulders pushed down on the bed... presenting yourself to me and asking me to fuck you hard.
stuff like that.
11:56 PM Or what's now known as the "picnic table" position
;)
me: they don't have a smilie for the expression on my face currently
11:57 PM DJ: :)
good.
My battery is dying.
and it's that time anyway.. I'm still catching up.
thank you for being here :)
me: was pleasant
11:58 PM DJ: go pull one of those rings for me ;)
me: I hope you sleep well tonight
!
haha
slick
DJ: :P
or both....
me: kinky
;)
DJ: uhhuh
me: haha
DJ: you doubted me ;)
11:59 PM me: never again... least not for the next 2 minutes
DJ: so there you go.
Bye
:)
me: good night :)
