to DJ Vox
date Fri, Jul 30, 2010 at 9:17 PM
subject Chat with DJ Vox
9:17 PM me: why did you use quotations marks around "us"?
howdy
heh
9:18 PM DJ: Because that's one way of making it "special"
like "special"
me: quotation marks are for direct quotes or to demonstrate an unreal quality... they aren't for emphasis
DJ: I don't know how to do the fancy bold and italic thingy you do.. I keep meaning to ask and keep forgetting
9:19 PM me: hence "us" implies that there really is no us
DJ: Uh... no.. it implies the opposite.
me: not grammatically
and I am uber sensitive to stuff like that
;)
DJ: Ok so my grammar and typography suck
at least I can SPELL grammar
9:20 PM most folks seem to go grammer.
me: I wonder if I can italic in here
hmm...
nope
[i]test[/i]
DJ: so it's html stuff?
me: darn it
yeah
DJ: works well in the emails.
me: there's a button in email for it
9:21 PM DJ: I like it... coupled with knowing your voice I can "hear" you when you do that.
me: there's no way for me to do it in text so I have to caps things... which I really dislike doing
9:22 PM DJ: I heard you today when you went "NOooooooooo!"
me: hahaha...
I heard me today when I noed
DJ: I like the idea that I buzzed your butt while you were bent over ;)
me: the whole block prolly heard me
you made a nice butt-buzzer
;)
DJ: :P
9:23 PM me: hey... have you watched an autopsy?
or more than one perhaps
9:24 PM DJ: Only one.
seen plenty of bodies at wrecks though.
and parts... (yuk)
9:25 PM me: I take it you did not find that interesting
DJ: Oh it was very interesting
9:26 PM smelly but interestings.
oops
9:27 PM me: did you get inured to the wrecks?
DJ: Not really. You harden yourself in some ways but ti comes out later in others.
Just get the job done... flip out later.
9:28 PM that's why cops, ffs EMTs and nurses have such sickly black humor.
me: my sis says she imagines crimes scenes are episodes on teevee
she has no sick dark humor
9:29 PM but she's not like a lot of LEOs
9:30 PM DJ: I usually don't "participate" but I understand it.
9:31 PM me: I understand why people think it needs to be done... I don't necessarily understand why it IS done
9:32 PM DJ: same reason some of us get the shakes after particularly nasty events.... it's a stress release... like whistling in a grave yard.
9:33 PM human nature pushed to the limit. Happens with soldiers too.
me: I think it's an I-don't-give-a-damn more than anything else
DJ: I know what you think... I'm just giving you another perspective.
9:34 PM me: I don't believe we've ever discussed this, so how could you possibly know what I think about it? I didn't know what you thought until you told me nor did I assume to know what you thought even though I could've considering you're an officer
9:36 PM DJ: I think I suspected from your previous comments that you were going to say something about cops and us not caring and thinking we are better than others etc... I was close...
I could tell you were not liking the black humor idea so I was already thinking you were there in your head.
9:37 PM me: well then. No need for me to communicate since you've got me all figured out
DJ: Didn't mean to sound snotty by saying I knew what you were thinking... jsut that I understand YOUR perspective.
No no no no no... that's not true.
I might have a good handle on your perspectives but that does not mean know them in the details.
I like the details.
and hearing what you think about things.
9:41 PM me: you know what, I was going to give you a personal story but it's just not worth it. Think what you want about how I think
9:42 PM DJ: I think we are at crossed ideas again.
I'm not having an attitude about what you think.. I've tried to listen to you and understand.
me: anyway, I wanted to know if you'd seen an autopsy or autopsies because I wanted to know how the person who performed them acted
9:43 PM DJ: It was a class situation... academy.
me: ah
DJ: So they were probably behaving some what but I remember them having their own little jokes.
9:44 PM And i think they had a pool going as to when the first troop would barf.
(I'm sorry I upset you.. I didn't mean things to)
I think we had at least five people leave the room.
9:45 PM me: how many so-called bad cops have you encountered?
9:46 PM DJ: Don't forget... I get to help investigate and root them out so probably more than most.
stalkers...
shirkers....
thieves....
That's the major stuff..
9:47 PM heck.. we had to arrest one of our captains last year for sexual assault.
me: yet you don't seem to think those "bad cops" make just as much of an impact on people as the good ones
DJ: I got to help in a small way during his arrest.
I think they make MORE of an impact.
That's why I hate them so much.
like the morons you encountered the other morning.
9:48 PM No one ever hears about the good cop that just plugs along doing his thing.
9:49 PM me: why is that y'all are "one" when it comes to the good stuff but whenever something bad happens involving one of your one it's always "don't judge all of us because of one rotten apple"
9:50 PM and I don't ask that confrontationally
DJ: Not true for me again.... I don't like getting praised for other peoples work. I point it out when I didn't have anything to do with something. It happens ocasionally.
me: there are hundreds of stories of "good cops" so that is baloney
DJ: that's media bullshit.
our PR flack loves that shit.
9:51 PM she wanted to do a piece on us and I bitched a fit and helped put the squash on it.
me: but you just said "No one ever hears about the good cop that just plugs along doing his thing."
DJ: No one wants to know about the normal day to day grunt work
Let me tell you this.......
Know what I miss MOST from being on the road...???
9:52 PM me: the girls throwing themselves at you?
DJ: That ONE little thank you I'd get from a person I changed a tire for, or gave directions to or some other small thing i did for them.
very funny.
That never happened in any serious way.
9:53 PM I never missed the authoritarian parts fo the job.
Only the helping part.
me: the thank-yous only count though when they come from the "right" kind of person
DJ: wrong.
I remember one night....
9:54 PM I was going down rt 17 in York county....
no lights.. no moon....
very dark
Came up behind a biker with no tail light.
I'm talking old school REAL biker with a REAL old harley with a tiny tomb stone tail light...
9:55 PM even when it was working it was not much but he had nuthin'.
Anyway................
I stopped him and I could see in his stance he was waiting for the typical shake down and attitude....
I said....
9:56 PM "Hey man.... no hassle for you... I just wanted to let you know your tail light was out and it's dark as shit and I don't want anyone running up your ass...."
His attitude changed REAL fast.....
I told him that...
9:57 PM I'd follow him across the bridge into Gloucester and there was a gas station where he could get a bulb.
And he thanked me.
me: how many years ago was this?
DJ: '93....'96 ish
I got promoted in '96
9:58 PM me: so, like, 15 or so years afterward you still identify the guy as the "wrong" kind of guy -- enough to use him as an example of such thanking you
Hahaha
you are a trip
9:59 PM DJ: I can't win.
me: ;)
why are you trying to win?
DJ: I DO NOT THINK OF HIM AS WRONG
me: we aren't competing
DJ: BUT..
me: WE AREN'T COMPETING
DJ: YOU put yourself in the "wrong" place so I had to find someone else who ALSO did the same thing.
BOTH of you were WRONG as to my attitude.
so there.
10:00 PM BOTH of you THOUGHT that MR cop boy scout woudl think bad or hassle them because of who and what they are.
me: actually I had no opinion on your attitude which is why I was discussing it with you
10:01 PM once again you ascribed motives and sentiments to me that I do not have
you really ought to cut that out
DJ: Listen.. I like you FOR who you are .. not in spite of.
me: RIGHT BACK AT YA BABE!
10:02 PM DJ: Well heck...(tongue firmly in cheek for this one....)
What's not to like about me?
;)
me: see above
DJ: :P
me: it is completely ridiculous to defend yourself when you are not being attacked
10:03 PM I hope that you don't make it so that I feel I can't talk to you about LE junk
DJ: You can alway talk to me about le junk
me: because that IS a major part of what makes you interesting to me
as you know
DJ: I do know.
10:04 PM I can't wait to tid bit you about my meeting next week ;)
More string in front of the cat ;)
me: what is the meeting about?
DJ: Mostly electronic surveillance
10:05 PM me: who will be in attendance?
DJ: (read here telephones)
(and internet)
Everyone.
Literally
Feds of all stripes...
locals... states... everyone.
me: it greatly annoys me that I cannot attend such things
10:06 PM DJ: Even some Military and we've had folks from Scotland yard etc.
Or the British Home Office.
Heck...I'm lucky they let ME in.
10:07 PM (you'd actually be able to keep up better than I)
10:08 PM me: why wouldn't they let you in? aren't you like the epitome of attendees?
10:09 PM DJ: I'm talking about my ability to keep up with some of these guys... you'd do better than I would.. LOTS of info in a very short time.
Position wise I'm exactly who should be there for my agency.
10:10 PM Let me see if I can find the agenda... you might like hearing some fo the topics.
10:11 PM me: I don't know why you would say I would do better. I usually pick out the irrelevant and obsess over it
10:12 PM DJ: But you appear to be able to be a sponge when needed.. or am I wrong about that...
me: oh. I did realize after the ATF guys left, that one of them I'd been obsessing over for the last month. I didn't connect that he was one and the same until after the door shut
10:13 PM yeah, I soak up EVERYTHING. sometimes I don't know the extent of how much info I've accumulated until long afterwards
and then one little thing will bring it to mind
heh
it's weird
10:14 PM DJ: It's that BRAIN
:)
10:15 PM me: how bizarre is it that I wish it was either much much larger or much much smaller
I like that yours is larger than mine
10:16 PM DJ: you keep saying that and I keep pointing out that I don't think so.
YOU are the one who keeps catching me in logical lapses.
or some such
me: I don't recall doing that
10:17 PM DJ: besides... to much of my brain is sex driven.
me: I think it would not be if you had someone/where to direct all that testosterone
DJ: Not true
10:18 PM I'd just be able to concentrate better.
when I needed to.
10:19 PM me: so you have been in relationships where you had an overactive sex life?
or what others may describe as overactive
DJ: I wish.
10:20 PM me: then how do you know the effect such would have on you?
you've never had that
DJ: I can extrapolate.
me: (did you find the agenda?)
DJ: I've had short time periods of "satiated"
'but they never last for one reason or another.
10:21 PM yes but the topic headings make no sense if you've never been there... I'll give you an example..
Femto Cells Testing Results
10:22 PM me: but that's what I mean... when they start to waver, you haven't had any relief
right?
DJ: not really..in those few times I felt very satified.
things where happening often enough to take the edge way off and I felt apprechated and liked.
10:23 PM and had the outlet for my affection .
it's that bottled up affection that's worse than feeling horny.
Those hugs you and I have go so much to making me feel so very good.
10:24 PM and the way you touch me.... you like me AND you enjoy it. it's very natual.
oops
natural.
me: <--- reading about femtocells
have to know what that is before I can figure out how to test results
10:25 PM haha
DJ: exactly
me: and then sometimes I know what something is... I just didn't know what it was called
:P
10:26 PM I enjoy our hugs too
DJ: 4G Technology Trends
me: I've actually been delving into that recently though I'm not entirely sure why
it's serves me no purpose
DJ: Hugs or 4g?
10:27 PM me: both
although the hugs serve a purpose
they make me feel all warm and fuzzy
DJ: Like the hand thing... the same but different.
me: I was surprised by your response about the "get" from your anal, uh, fixation
10:28 PM DJ: I was imporessed that you noticed and mentioned the hand thing after we were togheter... very insightfull.
get?
me: that's me, Miss Insightful
well when you asked what I get from the sperm swap
10:29 PM DJ: I don't have a fixation... I just don't have inhibitions about things that feel good in that area.
me: and I said I thought maybe it was like what you get from anal stuff
DJ: ah
What I "get" is that ....
me: I put an "uh" before the "fixation"
DJ: that area fo the body on some poeple is very packed with nerves and can be very pleasruable to stimulate..
that plus...
10:30 PM It's just plain erotic.
It's nice to not have any limits as to where you can touch... lick... kiss.. etc.
10:31 PM I have a YOU fixation
how's that?
me: you would describe what you have for me as a fixation?
DJ: Correct... but it was a clever turn around from "fixations"
10:32 PM I've never been a boob guy or an ass guy or legs etc....
Redheads we could discuss... that's about the closest we'd get.
10:33 PM me: I wish I had something with which to keep you
10:34 PM excuse my random thought in there
heh
DJ: what do you mean?
10:35 PM me: I mean I have nothing to keep you from walking away and never looking back
10:36 PM DJ: Who ever does?
THINK about that for a moment.
10:37 PM me: sure, if you take it to a philosophical level... I just mean a general SOMETHING
like my CPD guy... he won't walk away
not that I've done anything to keep him
10:38 PM he just thinks I have a SOMETHING
DJ: We are getting very close to TMI
me: ?
DJ: <<<< Jealous
me: oh please
10:39 PM DJ: You think I jest?
me: I do indeed think you jest about that
DJ: You would be very very wrong.
to what purpose would i tell you sometjing like that.
something that could be used to hurt me badly (not that you ever would)
10:40 PM "admission against self interest"
have you ever heard that?
me: yes
but...
men will say things to earn points
10:41 PM claiming jealousy is one of many point-earning tactics
DJ: I know I know... once again.. I'm double fucked.. cop AND male....
:P
BUT.....
Once again I have the shield of a pure heart.
me: I like that you are cop AND male
10:42 PM DJ: Because not one bit of anything I've ever told you has proven to be false.
All things prove out in the end.
me: you could go your whole life with me not catching you in a lie... that doesn't mean you didn't lie
10:43 PM DJ: Well..
me: I do catch your inconsistencies
DJ: I'm not going to stop saying such things because....
I'm not supposed to hide from you.
contriditions...
10:44 PM Like the fact that I'm painfully shy but can talk to a whole room full of people with apparent ease.
me: that may be a contradiction of sorts but that's not the type of inconsistencies I mean
10:45 PM DJ: I thought of that after I typed it.
you are correct
me: and I can relate although I wouldn't say I am shy inasmuch as anxiety-ridden
DJ: (please make a note of the date and time.. a man has admitted he was wrong)
10:46 PM me: I'm not the kind of female who cares about such things like a man admitting he was wrong
whatever
DJ: Meany
:P
me: sometimes
;)
10:47 PM DJ: You are dangerous.
me: I can make up for being mean though quite well
I am NOT dangerous
DJ: Very
me: I'm a sweet ol' kitty cat
DJ: don't get me started thinking about your kittycat.
now THAT is mean :P
me: purr
10:48 PM DJ: jeebus.
anyway....................
Miss "I have no longer a sex drive"
me: I believe I told you I could behave as if I do
10:50 PM I also stand by my intellectual stimulation is better than physical anyday
DJ: A also believe you tole me that it had been awakened... and I'd hate to think you are THAT good of an actress
Both together are the best.
me: you have no idea how good of an actress I am
10:51 PM :P
DJ: Oh yes i do.
We are peas on a pod in someways.
But because of that I see the veracity in some of the things you tell me that you intimate could be acting.
in other words...
it's tough to bullshit a bullshitter.
10:52 PM You may play that game with others...
but you've found you don't need to with me.
I stay around anyway.
and you LIKE it.
Thus one of the reasons I'm "dangerous."
10:53 PM (and yes... now you are probably thinking that you've let me know WAY to much about the insides of your head....)
me: you are dangerous because you can see things that others can't... it only means I have to employ other tactics on you
DJ: I know you do.
10:54 PM me: and I can tell when I err
DJ: I'm not totally oblivious.
me: and I can amend mistakes
DJ: You've had to adjust to me I know.
me: you are not getting anything I wouldn't give anyone else... as far as genuineness
DJ: "different"
10:55 PM me: I've told you nothing I wouldn't tell someone else
though I may have told you in a different way
DJ: Not with words
ha
anyway.................
10:56 PM I don't think anyone is as far inside your head as I am.
and still you fight it.
10:57 PM And by NO means am I saying that I have you figured out..
you are much to complex a creature.
but that's a very good thing.
not boring by a long shot.
me: you know what I let you know
DJ: I knew you'd get there.
:P
You think I don't see that?
10:58 PM it's not just the glasses you put up.
that's also the reason I think it was HUGE that you and I were together.
10:59 PM I SAW you decide in a split second.
and felt.
11:00 PM me: which makes you dangerous
and inspires me to be more cautious
11:01 PM DJ: Don't worry about it.
:)
me: are you at a computer?
DJ: ya
but..........
11:02 PM I need to plug it in and at least go take a beak upstairs....
why?
me: I want you to do something
DJ: (I could never type this fast with my thumbs)
me: heh
DJ: wot?
11:03 PM me: put your fingers on the screen and think about me for a moment... will you do that?
11:05 PM did you comply?
11:08 PM DJ: yes
Closed my eyes even
11:09 PM me: where did you put your fingers exactly?
DJ: netbook..small screen.. left hand left side
me: did you feel anything?
11:10 PM DJ: literally no... but I could convince myself there was a person on the other side.
11:11 PM But I was thikin about you palmpressed against mine
11:12 PM me: hmm... okay
DJ: there's an uproar here... gotta go :(
me: okay
